John, God love him, is not into the simple life. He loves all things that plug in or have batteries. His idea of the perfect home is something looking very much like a spaceship, with flashing buttons to push and multi screens of various sorts all flashing information at him 24 hours a day. He loves noise and chaos. Good Lord we are so opposite. I like quiet. Silence. I sometimes turn on some music or a movie during my precious "me" time but mostly I read, journal, look at other people's flickr pages. I like slow living, he likes fast paced panic. He's bored otherwise. That's how he's wired. I've come to accept it.
In simplifying our life together however I'm struggling to some extent with where to start and how to make those hard decisions. For example, my shoes. I have a lot of them. Most of them are a few years old, and completely impractical for my life today. I used to work in an office, dress and heels everyday. Now I'm home chasing the most beautiful girl in the world all day. Although having a closet full of beautiful heels makes me feel good, it also takes up space I need for the shoes I actually wear, my Birkenstocks, my converse, my boots. So the hard decisions begin. What to keep, what to get rid of. I guess part of me hold on to some of these things as the last thread to who I was before I was a mom, which by the way wasn't all that awesome. My life is far more fun and fulfilling now, harder but more fun. I guess in simplifying my closet I also need to simplify my thought life. Love myself for who I am today, not who I used to be. Love my body, messy hair, goofy laugh, stretch marks. Those things are the evidence of the hard work it is to be a mom and I'm proud of being a mom. Am I the best mom in the world, no. Really nobody is. She's a myth. But teaching Hazel that life isn't about stuff and looking a certain way all the time is what being a good mom should be.
Next big simplify process I'm not looking forward to, my books/magazines. If you know me, you know I'm a book and magazine hound. Anything with print on it. I love to buy them, have them, read them over and over but gosh they take up a lot of space. So that's the next hard road to walk down. Fingers crossed letting go will get easier... haha, yeah right.